Sunday Morning

Ohayo, minna san
Not able to sleep last night and I keep yawning this morning. However, it feels great. I would be attending office tomorrow. For the first day! wow. Can you imagine? after months of leisure time. It must be pretty difficult for me to adjust my lazy day. lol

Today's plan is coming to my university gathering. There are some old friends that living in this capital city as well. we'd been planning and talking about going out together since year ago, but nobody seems to be taking initiative. We just waited for each other to start organizing. That's bad. It's not because we hate initiative, we just don't want to take responsibility to call everyone.

Well, when you grow older, you work for yourself, not for other. There hardly no volunteer job because if you can work, you'd work for the sake of yourself, right? that's the courtesy of being an adult.

Another worrying aspect is rejection. Most people have their own priority now. They lead different life. Some are married, others have job and many other excuses adult could make. And for the same reason, we could not care less about them. I may not angry nor condemn them. ahh..tsukareta.

In this stage of Adult, we must maintain calm attitude. When younger people tend to act because of desire. They come into a party to gain new friends. They enrolled in a course because their friends are also attending it. But, we're not. We can't. We shouldn't follow others. People expect us to have our own mind. That's the way of an adult!

Wedding Dress

I would argue

Then you would cry

As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger

My heartaches behind these shadows

My face brightens up as I see your smile

I worry that you might notice my feelings

And I get scared that the gap between us would widen

I hold my breath

Then I bite my lips

Then I pray that she would leave his side.

I almost cry seeing Taeyang's Wedding Dress. It's such a cute song for a broken heart soul. Well, I might gonna start liking him (Taeyang & Big Bang)..Whuaaaaaa...it's never crossed my mind before.

Anyway,the PV tells a beautiful love story. There are 3 best friends, 2 guys and a girl. They always having fun together. When Taeyang decides that he's in love with his girl best friend, he prepares to propose. However, their best friend acts one step ahead. He slips the ring to her hand, and she says yes (Well, I don't blame her. He's cuter than Taeyang. lol).

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come

The most frustrating part is when Taeyang is asked to play song on their wedding. Ah, they're so mean.
But, I guess that's because he never told them how he feels. Still,it's tiring. It's so exhausted to look strong when you're hurted.

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands

ah, it's an amazing song. Yet, he still pray for her. I think that's what true love means (ha ha..I wouldn't know since I never been burnt). You loves, you're left behind but you still wish for her happiness. Because hate can't help you. It can't rest you in peace. 

You just have to move on. And by the time, there would be a new love for you.

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.