I had this news a few minutes ago. She told me there's something come in. but, I never thought it would be marriage announcement. For a moment, I couldn't speak. I tried to consume what the hell she was talking about.
"I'm getting married," she said just like those heroines in romantic comedy movies.
For some reason, I thought she betrays me. It's my ego talking. Years we've been sharing thoughts that marriage is a cage for woman. Judging from many people's marriages around us, it doesn't seem to bring happiness. In spite of giving hope, it cuts tie with many loveable things in our world. For some reason I'm not ready to tell you, I'm so not into marriage.
But, I understand the words that came out of her mouth; I really feel that this is the path she should take. She sounded so happy so I couldn't say any mean word.
The radio announcer just said about this a while ago. A best friend should know when to attack and when to defend her best friend. Is this the time for me to defend for her? This is the right moment to show her that I really care and wish the best thing for her life.
Is this how dirin feel when iis got married? I'm not feeling jealous but I feel lonely. It seems like I'm no longer special for her (not that I was the center of her affection before). Because she's the center of my affection (when I'm conscious). She would be caring for someone else. And it's getting scarier as I write these words. I couldn't call her anytime in midnight like we used to do. I couldn't ask her to pay attention to me because she's not supposed to do so. I would be the numbered person after that guy.



